Thanks for your kind words and thoughts folks been a rough few weeks.
My cousin who I grew up with and were very close committed suicide. He had called me that night (early morning) and I didn't pick up the phone, being wiped out and tired, figuring he had a little to drink and I'd let him sleep it off and I'd call him in the morning. Something I will regret until the day I am no longer breathing. ( he wasn't drinking, and statistically most folks who take their own lives are not under the influence of drugs or alcohol)
He was a huge supporter of OC, and other fundamental rights. When the BPD had illegally arrested me for trying to file a complaint, he was in the parking lot witnessing what happened, and appalled by how as he stated it 'the department closed rank, to protect their own.' He read these boards although didn't participate, there are a few other combat veterans that do this too, for reasons I simply can not understand so don't try too. So many times I would voice his opinions for him, but we were so alike it never strayed far from my own thoughts or line of thinking. Not long ago when I was discouraged and thinking of giving up, he told me a story about training in boot camp and then the actual application in combat. His saying had become a mantra, for us, I'll share that at another time.
He served in Iraq as a combat veteran. He was a loving father and husband (although he had divorced his wife to protect her). He was a true loyal friend and brother, he would defend you to the death. He was an enrolled member of the Lummi tribe of Indians and a graduate of North West Indian College. Working slowly for a degree in journalism at Western Washington University because he was so sick of how things are twisted and reported in media today especially when it was concerning, his fellow soldiers in Iraq.
I have just read but not having sourced it that we loose more veterans in who have served in this last conflict to suicide than we do in battle. My cousin was in a tower that was blown up with an RPG and left for dead, he had severe head injuries he survived this and fought to come home to his family. He spent months re learning to walk, had a constant supply of pills and therapy, suffered from the ability to interact socially ( something we have in common and might just be our upbringing). He battled his demons that plagued him constantly sad to say those demons won this round.
I urge all veterans (and any others suffering from similar difficulties) please don't isolate yourselves, please seek the help of other veterans, don't keep putting it off !!!! Remember that your friends and family love you and need you, and that sometimes we just get caught up in our lives and our minor stresses and that this in no way means you are forgotten or not cared for. I am going to selfishly plead to think about the pain, anguish and guilt others will feel when you are no longer around.